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Post by Rose Sakowitz on Nov 5, 2008 19:47:08 GMT -5
Rose made it back to the dorm as soon as she could later that day. She had heard Noelle, she had to be there. It was so frustrating. She passed out because she wasn't feeling well physically. She made that outburst because she was horrified at the very thought of Kingston helping her in anyway at all. Why? Because then she might get the idea that he liked her more than other girls. And then she would get all stupid and giddy. And then she would be let down.
Rose made herway upstairs and changed into something more comfortable. Dark wash jeans, plain purple t shirt, and a pair of Puma sneakers. Still good to be seen outside in, but it was good for doing.... well whatever Noelle was going to make her do. She couldn't exactly be re-hazed in a dress.
But she wasn't about to make excuses like that. She would just be honest, say what she had to say, let Noelle do what she had to do. Do whatever Noelle wanted to do. And then find a way to go back to normal, well whatever she was before all of this.
Rose just didn't understand why Ariana hated her so much! Ariana walked around the place like she was the queen of the world, treating her like dirt and talking as if she had Noelle's authority. But if Noelle didn't stop it, it meant she didn't want to stop it. And if Noelle doesn't want it: it doesn't happen. And no one attempts to make it happen.
But she just wished that people would understand - these people, Billings and whoever - that she was going to have bad days. She regretted what she had said, but it was only "Fuck Off Kingston." Like people didn't say that all the time....
And don't even get her started on the Blair Waldorf comment! Rose didn't watch Gossip Girl regularly, and she would never resort to acting that shallow to someone. She was herself all the time, and if someone had a problem with that, well, whatever. They'll get over it.
'Not like Ariana would...' she thought to herself.
And now Kingston would think she was a regular bitch. Just a snobby Billings girl that thought she was allowed to attack people because she fainted like a freak in the cafe. But she didn't say that because of that. She did'nt think she was that way, she just freaked. But now that was over. He thought she was just a little clique-y girl now, worse than those wannabe slut/billings girls, Massie, Kristen, Dylan, Alicia, and Claire.
She hated Ariana. And what-s her name, Tiffany. Why did they get to walk all over her like that? When did they get the authority to do that? They would stick up for Reed Brennan but they couldn't stick up for the girl that had never stabbed them in the back once. Had never turned her back on them and always stood up for her?
She knew that wasn't the way it happened in this world. Not this time. Not ever. No chance.
She was sitting on the couch, as poised as usual. She wasn't about to make another scene. She waited calmly, ready for the worst and most humiliating. She'd done it once. She'd do it again. She would redeem herself.
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Post by Noelle Lange on Nov 5, 2008 21:09:10 GMT -5
Noelle took her sweet ass time to make it to the parlor. In fact to make it to Billings House in general. There was no way she would give Rose the satisfactory of letting her just know her punishment and to be over with it. Maybe she was an hour later, or maybe she was just 30 minutes. Honestly she had no clue except for the fact that Rose would just have to wait.
Who did she think she was for trying to be such a bitch to the people that tried to help her. Ariana was actually a little understandable considering she had just got their after she fainted and Rose started to freak out, but still. Her, Tiffany, and Kingston were only trying to make sure she was ok. Which was a lot considering Tiff doesn't even like Rose.
Now she could honestly see why they didn't like her. She was a little bitch who thought she was better then everyone. Which actually explained why her and Cheyenne were friends. The only reason she was in Billings anyway was because she was a Legacy to it. Maybe she should really work on trying to change that rule now, because half these girls didn't deserve to be in it. Rose of course was one of those girls. Its kind of funny how the two went from being kind of sort of friends, and then to Noelle thinking she was just a idiot.
Noelle finally made her way to the parlor after spending a little more time in Dash's dorm, and really didn't say anything to Rose. She just sat down in her normal spot and crossed her legs. Th3n she finally opened her mouth to say, "You do realise your little outbreak will cost you a lot right. Not only for embarrassing Billings, but for being a complete and total bitch to people who were trying to help you," She went on, "I know Ariana shouldn't have came in like she did and said what she said, but you shouldn't have acted like such a child. Kingston did nothing to you. Tiffany did nothing to you. And, I. Did. Nothing. To. You." She said the last part slowly as if she was trying to let it sink into Rose's head. "And, to make it up to us, you have to do whatever me, Tiffany, and Kingston say. Just think of it as a way to apologize to the three of us." Her crooked smile looked menacing and a little sinister. It was like she was plotting for her to do the worse things she could think of.
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Post by Rose Sakowitz on Nov 6, 2008 17:18:07 GMT -5
Rose watched Noelle walk in and had the decency to stare at her knees. She listened to the predictable things Noelle said and nodded when she thought Noelle was done. "I know what I did was absolutely rediculous. I shouldn't have had an outbreak like that," she paused to keep her voice from cracking and then plowed on as honest as before.
"I really am sorry. And of course. I'll do whatever you want me to, for as long as you'd like... I really deserve more than that." Well what else was she supposed to say? Anything else would've been a lie, and she wasn't lieing to Noelle. Not in this possition. Not ever.
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Post by Noelle Lange on Nov 6, 2008 20:53:02 GMT -5
Noelle shrugged, "Well I was planning on making you do worthless deeds that'd probably hurt a little, but if you want more of a punishment then ok. But, I'm not going to come up with it." Why waste her time coming up with punishments when Rose thought she needed an even worse one, "You are." She just wanted to see what she would come up with. If it was alright then she could do it. But, if it was something totally stupid then why let her do it.
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Post by Rose Sakowitz on Nov 11, 2008 18:09:56 GMT -5
Rose had expected her to say something impossible like this. What was she supposed to say now. It wasn't as if she had lied to Noelle - everything she had said she meant. But what was she supposed to say to this?
"Noelle, I'm sorry, but I don't know. All I know is that I screwed up too much to put to words. If you want to use what you came up with, go for it. But if you're asking me to come up with my own awful punishment, I can't. If you agree with what I said why don't you hire Tiffany to come up with something?" She said that with honestly too, and managed not to sound condesending or hostile at all.
And then she just had to dread what was to come.
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Post by Noelle Lange on Nov 11, 2008 21:16:36 GMT -5
Of course Tiffany could always come up with a completely horrible thing for Rose to do. "Well. How about I ask Kingston and Tiffany for more ideas and then whichever I like more, I'll make you do it." Who knows Kingston may be able to come up with something good. But, she still wanted to do hers though only because she just wanted to. "You do know everyone knows you like Kingston, so why would you even treat him like that?" Its not like she ever treated Dash that way.
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Post by Rose Sakowitz on Nov 12, 2008 16:23:42 GMT -5
Rose knew this would come up, there's no way she would let it fly without bringing it up to taunt her with. Again she said what she meant. "It's not like I'm totally in love with him, I just happen to flirt with him and like him more than other guys. I didn't mean to say something like that too him, it was just... It was just in my little moment of out-of-it-ness I freaked. I couldn't get it wrapped around my brain in the one twentieth of a second I realized he was helping me. I just said something that rash because I was afraid I might end up saying something pathetic like 'oh thank you so much Kingston my love for helping me, let's go together.' I just wanted to make sure I didn't make a fool out of myself. Much help that did... But that's why I said it." She breathed. Make sure to breath Rose, keep calm.
"I wasn't angry at him, he didn't do anything, I just didn't want anyone to think I was about to fall into his arms and cheerful and then get pushed away. It's just one of my fears, being seen all over a guy and having him yank away from you publically, or any other place." This was scary, but she had to tell Noelle, try to explain it, no matter how stupid it sounded.
"Look, I know you could care less about me, that's obvious. To you I'm just a legacy who you were obligated to accept. And I'll do whatever you want me to to change that image. But I just wanted to make sure you heard my side of the story." Oh great, can't wait to hear the response to all this...
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Post by Noelle Lange on Nov 12, 2008 18:11:40 GMT -5
"I know your not totally in love with him. But, you like him and that's probably just gave him even more of a reason to go out with Tiffany." Everyone also knew he was stuck between Rose and Tiffany. But, actually it was pretty obvious who he liked more between the two girls. "And, don't you think its kind of dumb to think your just going to go all fangirish whenever he touches you." Ok she admitted she did get like that with Dash sometimes. Which was very rare.
"Come on out of all the guys you fear Kingston the most." It was understandable that she liked him, but it was Kingston. The sweetest most nicest boy in the world, who was completely unscary.
"Your right all you are is a Legacy, that I had to bring in." Well might as well be truthful. "But, you did finish all the tasks that were asked of you during initiation. Just, like I hope your willing to do them again."
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Post by Rose Sakowitz on Nov 13, 2008 19:38:21 GMT -5
Rose laughed, "The point of doing that was to make sure I didn't come off as fangirlish. If I push him away an act like a bitch I thought, for that split second, it would be better than being his adoring girl..." Rose was getting sick again, but not in the same way. Sick of explaining herself. "Look, if he were to go out with Tiffany, I don't care. Well, I would of course, wish he had picked me and all, but I don't know why Tiffany hates me so much. I didn't bitch slap her or anything so, whatever," what a lame response. But what was she supposed to do? To pretend to be all confident and sure of herself and be brought down again. If you were on the ground in the deep end You can't go any farther. Why give people a chance to break you?
"I know, I'm mental, but... it's just weird liking a guy this much. It doesn't exactly happen too often with me. Not to be all self pitying of course, i'm just saying."
Now Noelle was pissing her off. Of course she wasn't going to show that, but she was getting pretty close to it. But she had to keep composure, she had no choice. It was the law she set on herself. "Of course I'd be willing to do it over again. I may be a legacy, obligated to be accepted, but I like to try and break the stereotype when it comes to me. I'm like others could be, totally convinced that I deserve to be here and don't have to work for it at all. I've been accepted here, that was your obligation. But staying here? I'm going to work for it, whatever it takes. I know I have to work for it."
She shut up before her conversation could be considered "rambling." Always best to say as much as you could in as little of time. Gives Noelle all the information she needs and you want her to have and understand, but doesn't waste her time so she gets bored and overwhelmed and ready or it to be over. It was in those cases where she was less thoughtful.
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Post by Noelle Lange on Nov 14, 2008 18:33:44 GMT -5
Noelle rolled her eyes. Rose's whole reasoning behind why she was acting like such a bitch was stupid and totally immature. By thinking that she just made herself seem even worse then before if that was possible.
Why did it seem like Rose thought Noelle wanted her out of Billings. She may get on Noelle's nerves a little, but she didn't want her completely out of it. If she did she already would be out just like Leanne and another person would be in. Or maybe it's just because she hasn't found anyone worthy enough to replace her with. But, then again if that was the case then Cheyenne would be the first to go anyway.
"You didn't until this point. And, I wouldn't kick you out of here anyway. There would be other people I would try and get out before you." Which was probably more then obvious. "If I wanted to kick you out, Rose, you would have been gone by now."
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Post by Rose Sakowitz on Nov 17, 2008 19:27:46 GMT -5
Rose didn't know what to say, so she settled on a somewhat lame if it hadn't been her saying it, "Okay." It was so strange, everything in general that is. It was as if the world was turned upside down.. again. "So, Noelle, at this precise moment, what do you want me to do? Walk away, keep talking? What." She didn't know what to do. Why not ask.
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